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That Happened

October 22, 2016
Ciaran Owen Offline Valhalir // Ian I hate myself. Even as I bark at the moon, I don't have the courage to reach out and grab it. 810 HP 785 Years Male Tenth Division Lieutenant Ebony Lions Eireaball Nathair
That Happened Jan 09, 2018, 06:05PM // 310 Words


12
19
PM - Sat Oct 22


The light heart lives long.








12:19 PM


75%

Bluefuck



the talk with iname happened.

it uh. it went well.

Sent 12:19 PM


Gage Jordan Offline Diablo // Pham Thanh Quit pissin' me off, I'm runnin' out of places to hide the bodies. 855 HP 575 Years Male Twelfth Division Lieutenant Jade Tigers Ironscale Flight Wingleader Rider Council Member Shieth Dawnreaver Roi Panthere
That Happened Jan 09, 2018, 06:23PM // 394 Words


12
21
PM - Sat Oct 22


Anger is as blind as love








12:21 PM


75%

Kee

the talk with iname happened.
it uh. it went well.
12:19 PM


Is that sarcasm?

I mean, it seems like it'd be sarcasm, but I was hoping for a better outcome so... I gotta ask.

Sent 12:21 PM


Ciaran Owen Offline Valhalir // Ian I hate myself. Even as I bark at the moon, I don't have the courage to reach out and grab it. 810 HP 785 Years Male Tenth Division Lieutenant Ebony Lions Eireaball Nathair
That Happened Jan 09, 2018, 07:58PM // 489 Words


12
25
PM - Sat Oct 22


The light heart lives long.








12:25 PM


75%

Bluefuck

the talk with iname happened.
it uh. it went well.
Sent 12:19 PM

Is that sarcasm?
I mean, it seems like it'd be sarcasm, but I was hoping for a better outcome so... I gotta ask.
12:21 PM

welp.
im crashin with rory these days so that ought say somethin I guess. prolly more about my own mental state than how the conversation went, but yanno. apparently he didnt even notice he was doin' anything different. i guess this bodes well for it changing but im not really holding my breath.
Sent 12:25 PM

Gage Jordan Offline Diablo // Pham Thanh Quit pissin' me off, I'm runnin' out of places to hide the bodies. 855 HP 575 Years Male Twelfth Division Lieutenant Jade Tigers Ironscale Flight Wingleader Rider Council Member Shieth Dawnreaver Roi Panthere
That Happened Jan 09, 2018, 08:09PM // 548 Words


12
27
PM - Sat Oct 22


Anger is as blind as love








12:27 PM


75%

Kee

the talk with iname happened.
it uh. it went well.
12:19 PM

Is that sarcasm?
I mean, it seems like it'd be sarcasm, but I was hoping for a better outcome so... I gotta ask.
Sent 12:21 PM

welp.
im crashin with rory these days so that ought say somethin I guess. prolly more about my own mental state than how the conversation went, but yanno. apparently he didnt even notice he was doin' anything different. i guess this bodes well for it changing but im not really holding my breath.
12:25 PM

You guys aren't doing something stupid and breaking up, are you?
Sent 12:27 PM

Ciaran Owen Offline Valhalir // Ian I hate myself. Even as I bark at the moon, I don't have the courage to reach out and grab it. 810 HP 785 Years Male Tenth Division Lieutenant Ebony Lions Eireaball Nathair
That Happened Jan 09, 2018, 08:13PM // 651 Words


12
34
PM - Sat Oct 22


The light heart lives long.








12:34 PM


75%

Bluefuck

the talk with iname happened.
it uh. it went well.
Sent 12:19 PM

Is that sarcasm?
I mean, it seems like it'd be sarcasm, but I was hoping for a better outcome so... I gotta ask.
12:21 PM

welp.
im crashin with rory these days so that ought say somethin I guess. prolly more about my own mental state than how the conversation went, but yanno. apparently he didnt even notice he was doin' anything different. i guess this bodes well for it changing but im not really holding my breath.
Sent 12:25 PM

You guys aren't doing something stupid and breaking up, are you?
12:27 PM

idk.
i told him about the other day.
you know what he said?
thanks for tellin me.
that's it.
wtf am i supposed to do with him, he dont even seem to care about THAT!
Sent 12:34 PM

Gage Jordan Offline Diablo // Pham Thanh Quit pissin' me off, I'm runnin' out of places to hide the bodies. 855 HP 575 Years Male Twelfth Division Lieutenant Jade Tigers Ironscale Flight Wingleader Rider Council Member Shieth Dawnreaver Roi Panthere
That Happened Jan 09, 2018, 08:26PM // 770 Words


12
45
PM - Sat Oct 22


Anger is as blind as love








12:45 PM


75%

Kee

the talk with iname happened.
it uh. it went well.
12:19 PM

Is that sarcasm?
I mean, it seems like it'd be sarcasm, but I was hoping for a better outcome so... I gotta ask.
Sent 12:21 PM

welp.
im crashin with rory these days so that ought say somethin I guess. prolly more about my own mental state than how the conversation went, but yanno. apparently he didnt even notice he was doin' anything different. i guess this bodes well for it changing but im not really holding my breath.
12:25 PM

You guys aren't doing something stupid and breaking up, are you?
Sent 12:27 PM

idk.
i told him about the other day.
you know what he said?
thanks for tellin me.
that's it.
wtf am i supposed to do with him, he dont even seem to care about THAT!
12:34 PM

... look.
I know this isn't something you wanna hear right now, but, maybe you should.
I've said it before, I'm sure, but you can't do this forever, and it's wearing you pretty thin. Just let go.
Sent 12:45 PM

Ciaran Owen Offline Valhalir // Ian I hate myself. Even as I bark at the moon, I don't have the courage to reach out and grab it. 810 HP 785 Years Male Tenth Division Lieutenant Ebony Lions Eireaball Nathair
That Happened Jan 09, 2018, 08:31PM // 879 Words


12
46
PM - Sat Oct 22


The light heart lives long.








12:46 PM


75%

Bluefuck

the talk with iname happened.
it uh. it went well.
Sent 12:19 PM

Is that sarcasm?
I mean, it seems like it'd be sarcasm, but I was hoping for a better outcome so... I gotta ask.
12:21 PM

welp.
im crashin with rory these days so that ought say somethin I guess. prolly more about my own mental state than how the conversation went, but yanno. apparently he didnt even notice he was doin' anything different. i guess this bodes well for it changing but im not really holding my breath.
Sent 12:25 PM

You guys aren't doing something stupid and breaking up, are you?
12:27 PM

idk.
i told him about the other day.
you know what he said?
thanks for tellin me.
that's it.
wtf am i supposed to do with him, he dont even seem to care about THAT!
Sent 12:34 PM

... look.
I know this isn't something you wanna hear right now, but, maybe you should.
I've said it before, I'm sure, but you can't do this forever, and it's wearing you pretty thin. Just let go.
12:45 PM

and nobody can tell me wtf that even means
what the fuck is just letting go? like thats a thing thats easy to do after well over a hundred years with the guy. you dont just let go of that, its not that simple, and i really wish you and rory would stop making it out to be.
idk who the fuck i AM without him gage, damn it
Sent 12:46 PM

Gage Jordan Offline Diablo // Pham Thanh Quit pissin' me off, I'm runnin' out of places to hide the bodies. 855 HP 575 Years Male Twelfth Division Lieutenant Jade Tigers Ironscale Flight Wingleader Rider Council Member Shieth Dawnreaver Roi Panthere
That Happened Jan 09, 2018, 08:35PM // 1085 Words


12
48
PM - Sat Oct 22


Anger is as blind as love








12:48 PM


75%

Kee

the talk with iname happened.
it uh. it went well.
12:19 PM

Is that sarcasm?
I mean, it seems like it'd be sarcasm, but I was hoping for a better outcome so... I gotta ask.
Sent 12:21 PM

welp.
im crashin with rory these days so that ought say somethin I guess. prolly more about my own mental state than how the conversation went, but yanno. apparently he didnt even notice he was doin' anything different. i guess this bodes well for it changing but im not really holding my breath.
12:25 PM

You guys aren't doing something stupid and breaking up, are you?
Sent 12:27 PM

idk.
i told him about the other day.
you know what he said?
thanks for tellin me.
that's it.
wtf am i supposed to do with him, he dont even seem to care about THAT!
12:34 PM

... look.
I know this isn't something you wanna hear right now, but, maybe you should.
I've said it before, I'm sure, but you can't do this forever, and it's wearing you pretty thin. Just let go.
Sent 12:45 PM

and nobody can tell me wtf that even means
what the fuck is just letting go? like thats a thing thats easy to do after well over a hundred years with the guy. you dont just let go of that, its not that simple, and i really wish you and rory would stop making it out to be.
idk who the fuck i AM without him gage, damn it
12:46 PM

AND THAT IS EXACTLY MY POINT!
This has gotten SO DAMN BAD you don't know how to function without him! It's SO DAMN BAD, you don't know who you are without him! IT'S SO DAMN BAD, CIARAN, YOU'RE AFRAID TO LET HIM GO.
LISTEN to me, damn it, this isn't right, it isn't healthy, and are you damn fucking sure he actually needs you because from where I'm sitting he's a manipulative mother fucker that convinced you he does, doesn't, and now it's you that needs him, because he fucked you up so goddamn bad you don't know how to breathe if he's not telling you!
LET. HIM. GO.
Sent 12:48 PM

Ciaran Owen Offline Valhalir // Ian I hate myself. Even as I bark at the moon, I don't have the courage to reach out and grab it. 810 HP 785 Years Male Tenth Division Lieutenant Ebony Lions Eireaball Nathair
That Happened Jan 09, 2018, 08:43PM // 1130 Words


12
52
PM - Sat Oct 22


The light heart lives long.








12:52 PM


75%

Bluefuck

the talk with iname happened.
it uh. it went well.
Sent 12:19 PM

Is that sarcasm?
I mean, it seems like it'd be sarcasm, but I was hoping for a better outcome so... I gotta ask.
12:21 PM

welp.
im crashin with rory these days so that ought say somethin I guess. prolly more about my own mental state than how the conversation went, but yanno. apparently he didnt even notice he was doin' anything different. i guess this bodes well for it changing but im not really holding my breath.
Sent 12:25 PM

You guys aren't doing something stupid and breaking up, are you?
12:27 PM

idk.
i told him about the other day.
you know what he said?
thanks for tellin me.
that's it.
wtf am i supposed to do with him, he dont even seem to care about THAT!
Sent 12:34 PM

... look.
I know this isn't something you wanna hear right now, but, maybe you should.
I've said it before, I'm sure, but you can't do this forever, and it's wearing you pretty thin. Just let go.
12:45 PM

and nobody can tell me wtf that even means
what the fuck is just letting go? like thats a thing thats easy to do after well over a hundred years with the guy. you dont just let go of that, its not that simple, and i really wish you and rory would stop making it out to be.
idk who the fuck i AM without him gage, damn it
Sent 12:46 PM

AND THAT IS EXACTLY MY POINT!
This has gotten SO DAMN BAD you don't know how to function without him! It's SO DAMN BAD, you don't know who you are without him! IT'S SO DAMN BAD, CIARAN, YOU'RE AFRAID TO LET HIM GO.
LISTEN to me, damn it, this isn't right, it isn't healthy, and are you damn fucking sure he actually needs you because from where I'm sitting he's a manipulative mother fucker that convinced you he does, doesn't, and now it's you that needs him, because he fucked you up so goddamn bad you don't know how to breathe if he's not telling you!
LET. HIM. GO.
12:45 PM

gage, stop it.
youre making a big deal out of somethin that aint a big deal.
stop it.
Sent 12:52 PM

Gage Jordan Offline Diablo // Pham Thanh Quit pissin' me off, I'm runnin' out of places to hide the bodies. 855 HP 575 Years Male Twelfth Division Lieutenant Jade Tigers Ironscale Flight Wingleader Rider Council Member Shieth Dawnreaver Roi Panthere
That Happened Jan 09, 2018, 08:48PM // 1303 Words


12
54
PM - Sat Oct 22


Anger is as blind as love








12:54 PM


75%

Kee

the talk with iname happened.
it uh. it went well.
12:19 PM

Is that sarcasm?
I mean, it seems like it'd be sarcasm, but I was hoping for a better outcome so... I gotta ask.
Sent 12:21 PM

welp.
im crashin with rory these days so that ought say somethin I guess. prolly more about my own mental state than how the conversation went, but yanno. apparently he didnt even notice he was doin' anything different. i guess this bodes well for it changing but im not really holding my breath.
12:25 PM

You guys aren't doing something stupid and breaking up, are you?
Sent 12:27 PM

idk.
i told him about the other day.
you know what he said?
thanks for tellin me.
that's it.
wtf am i supposed to do with him, he dont even seem to care about THAT!
12:34 PM

... look.
I know this isn't something you wanna hear right now, but, maybe you should.
I've said it before, I'm sure, but you can't do this forever, and it's wearing you pretty thin. Just let go.
Sent 12:45 PM

and nobody can tell me wtf that even means
what the fuck is just letting go? like thats a thing thats easy to do after well over a hundred years with the guy. you dont just let go of that, its not that simple, and i really wish you and rory would stop making it out to be.
idk who the fuck i AM without him gage, damn it
12:46 PM

AND THAT IS EXACTLY MY POINT!
This has gotten SO DAMN BAD you don't know how to function without him! It's SO DAMN BAD, you don't know who you are without him! IT'S SO DAMN BAD, CIARAN, YOU'RE AFRAID TO LET HIM GO.
LISTEN to me, damn it, this isn't right, it isn't healthy, and are you damn fucking sure he actually needs you because from where I'm sitting he's a manipulative mother fucker that convinced you he does, doesn't, and now it's you that needs him, because he fucked you up so goddamn bad you don't know how to breathe if he's not telling you!
LET. HIM. GO.
Sent 12:48 PM

gage, stop it.
youre making a big deal out of somethin that aint a big deal.
stop it.
12:52 PM

No.
You cried over this, that's not nothing. This is hurting you, a lot, and I don't want to make it worse, but fuck if I won't if it means it stops.
You're my friend, and I care about you. If I have to be the bad guy, fine, I will be.
Please, Ciaran. Please walk away from this. It's okay to take a step back and take care of you, and if Iname doesn't understand that, then he doesn't fucking deserve you.
Sent 12:54 PM

Ciaran Owen Offline Valhalir // Ian I hate myself. Even as I bark at the moon, I don't have the courage to reach out and grab it. 810 HP 785 Years Male Tenth Division Lieutenant Ebony Lions Eireaball Nathair
That Happened Jan 09, 2018, 09:02PM // 1360 Words


01
03
PM - Sat Oct 22


The light heart lives long.








1:03 PM


75%

Bluefuck

the talk with iname happened.
it uh. it went well.
Sent 12:19 PM

Is that sarcasm?
I mean, it seems like it'd be sarcasm, but I was hoping for a better outcome so... I gotta ask.
12:21 PM

welp.
im crashin with rory these days so that ought say somethin I guess. prolly more about my own mental state than how the conversation went, but yanno. apparently he didnt even notice he was doin' anything different. i guess this bodes well for it changing but im not really holding my breath.
Sent 12:25 PM

You guys aren't doing something stupid and breaking up, are you?
12:27 PM

idk.
i told him about the other day.
you know what he said?
thanks for tellin me.
that's it.
wtf am i supposed to do with him, he dont even seem to care about THAT!
Sent 12:34 PM

... look.
I know this isn't something you wanna hear right now, but, maybe you should.
I've said it before, I'm sure, but you can't do this forever, and it's wearing you pretty thin. Just let go.
12:45 PM

and nobody can tell me wtf that even means
what the fuck is just letting go? like thats a thing thats easy to do after well over a hundred years with the guy. you dont just let go of that, its not that simple, and i really wish you and rory would stop making it out to be.
idk who the fuck i AM without him gage, damn it
Sent 12:46 PM

AND THAT IS EXACTLY MY POINT!
This has gotten SO DAMN BAD you don't know how to function without him! It's SO DAMN BAD, you don't know who you are without him! IT'S SO DAMN BAD, CIARAN, YOU'RE AFRAID TO LET HIM GO.
LISTEN to me, damn it, this isn't right, it isn't healthy, and are you damn fucking sure he actually needs you because from where I'm sitting he's a manipulative mother fucker that convinced you he does, doesn't, and now it's you that needs him, because he fucked you up so goddamn bad you don't know how to breathe if he's not telling you!
LET. HIM. GO.
12:45 PM

gage, stop it.
youre making a big deal out of somethin that aint a big deal.
stop it.
Sent 12:52 PM

No.
You cried over this, that's not nothing. This is hurting you, a lot, and I don't want to make it worse, but fuck if I won't if it means it stops.
You're my friend, and I care about you. If I have to be the bad guy, fine, I will be.
Please, Ciaran. Please walk away from this. It's okay to take a step back and take care of you, and if Iname doesn't understand that, then he doesn't fucking deserve you.
12:54 PM

gage, there is no deserves or not deserves in shit like this
thats not the right way of lookin at it.
Sent 1:03 PM

Gage Jordan Offline Diablo // Pham Thanh Quit pissin' me off, I'm runnin' out of places to hide the bodies. 855 HP 575 Years Male Twelfth Division Lieutenant Jade Tigers Ironscale Flight Wingleader Rider Council Member Shieth Dawnreaver Roi Panthere
That Happened Jan 09, 2018, 09:05PM // 1501 Words


01
04
PM - Sat Oct 22


Anger is as blind as love








1:04 PM


75%

Kee

the talk with iname happened.
it uh. it went well.
12:19 PM

Is that sarcasm?
I mean, it seems like it'd be sarcasm, but I was hoping for a better outcome so... I gotta ask.
Sent 12:21 PM

welp.
im crashin with rory these days so that ought say somethin I guess. prolly more about my own mental state than how the conversation went, but yanno. apparently he didnt even notice he was doin' anything different. i guess this bodes well for it changing but im not really holding my breath.
12:25 PM

You guys aren't doing something stupid and breaking up, are you?
Sent 12:27 PM

idk.
i told him about the other day.
you know what he said?
thanks for tellin me.
that's it.
wtf am i supposed to do with him, he dont even seem to care about THAT!
12:34 PM

... look.
I know this isn't something you wanna hear right now, but, maybe you should.
I've said it before, I'm sure, but you can't do this forever, and it's wearing you pretty thin. Just let go.
Sent 12:45 PM

and nobody can tell me wtf that even means
what the fuck is just letting go? like thats a thing thats easy to do after well over a hundred years with the guy. you dont just let go of that, its not that simple, and i really wish you and rory would stop making it out to be.
idk who the fuck i AM without him gage, damn it
12:46 PM

AND THAT IS EXACTLY MY POINT!
This has gotten SO DAMN BAD you don't know how to function without him! It's SO DAMN BAD, you don't know who you are without him! IT'S SO DAMN BAD, CIARAN, YOU'RE AFRAID TO LET HIM GO.
LISTEN to me, damn it, this isn't right, it isn't healthy, and are you damn fucking sure he actually needs you because from where I'm sitting he's a manipulative mother fucker that convinced you he does, doesn't, and now it's you that needs him, because he fucked you up so goddamn bad you don't know how to breathe if he's not telling you!
LET. HIM. GO.
Sent 12:48 PM

gage, stop it.
youre making a big deal out of somethin that aint a big deal.
stop it.
12:52 PM

No.
You cried over this, that's not nothing. This is hurting you, a lot, and I don't want to make it worse, but fuck if I won't if it means it stops.
You're my friend, and I care about you. If I have to be the bad guy, fine, I will be.
Please, Ciaran. Please walk away from this. It's okay to take a step back and take care of you, and if Iname doesn't understand that, then he doesn't fucking deserve you.
Sent 12:54 PM

gage, there is no deserves or not deserves in shit like this
thats not the right way of lookin at it.
1:03 PM

So you're just going to let him get away with anything, treat you however he wants, ruin any sense of self-esteem you may have anymore, gaslight and play mind games with you, and call it good enough, because of cute little anecdotes you read on the internet somewhere?
There is a damn such thing as deserve or not deserve, and anyone that claims there isn't is a damned fucking manipulative liar, or being manipulated.
Sent 1:04 PM

Ciaran Owen Offline Valhalir // Ian I hate myself. Even as I bark at the moon, I don't have the courage to reach out and grab it. 810 HP 785 Years Male Tenth Division Lieutenant Ebony Lions Eireaball Nathair
That Happened Jan 09, 2018, 09:09PM // 1557 Words


01
07
PM - Sat Oct 22


The light heart lives long.








1:07 PM


75%

Bluefuck

the talk with iname happened.
it uh. it went well.
Sent 12:19 PM

Is that sarcasm?
I mean, it seems like it'd be sarcasm, but I was hoping for a better outcome so... I gotta ask.
12:21 PM

welp.
im crashin with rory these days so that ought say somethin I guess. prolly more about my own mental state than how the conversation went, but yanno. apparently he didnt even notice he was doin' anything different. i guess this bodes well for it changing but im not really holding my breath.
Sent 12:25 PM

You guys aren't doing something stupid and breaking up, are you?
12:27 PM

idk.
i told him about the other day.
you know what he said?
thanks for tellin me.
that's it.
wtf am i supposed to do with him, he dont even seem to care about THAT!
Sent 12:34 PM

... look.
I know this isn't something you wanna hear right now, but, maybe you should.
I've said it before, I'm sure, but you can't do this forever, and it's wearing you pretty thin. Just let go.
12:45 PM

and nobody can tell me wtf that even means
what the fuck is just letting go? like thats a thing thats easy to do after well over a hundred years with the guy. you dont just let go of that, its not that simple, and i really wish you and rory would stop making it out to be.
idk who the fuck i AM without him gage, damn it
Sent 12:46 PM

AND THAT IS EXACTLY MY POINT!
This has gotten SO DAMN BAD you don't know how to function without him! It's SO DAMN BAD, you don't know who you are without him! IT'S SO DAMN BAD, CIARAN, YOU'RE AFRAID TO LET HIM GO.
LISTEN to me, damn it, this isn't right, it isn't healthy, and are you damn fucking sure he actually needs you because from where I'm sitting he's a manipulative mother fucker that convinced you he does, doesn't, and now it's you that needs him, because he fucked you up so goddamn bad you don't know how to breathe if he's not telling you!
LET. HIM. GO.
12:45 PM

gage, stop it.
youre making a big deal out of somethin that aint a big deal.
stop it.
Sent 12:52 PM

No.
You cried over this, that's not nothing. This is hurting you, a lot, and I don't want to make it worse, but fuck if I won't if it means it stops.
You're my friend, and I care about you. If I have to be the bad guy, fine, I will be.
Please, Ciaran. Please walk away from this. It's okay to take a step back and take care of you, and if Iname doesn't understand that, then he doesn't fucking deserve you.
12:54 PM

gage, there is no deserves or not deserves in shit like this
thats not the right way of lookin at it.
Sent 1:03 PM

So you're just going to let him get away with anything, treat you however he wants, ruin any sense of self-esteem you may have anymore, gaslight and play mind games with you, and call it good enough, because of cute little anecdotes you read on the internet somewhere?
There is a damn such thing as deserve or not deserve, and anyone that claims there isn't is a damned fucking manipulative liar, or being manipulated.
1:04 PM

what
who the hell taught you to relationships?!
and that is not what i said!
Sent 1:07 PM

Gage Jordan Offline Diablo // Pham Thanh Quit pissin' me off, I'm runnin' out of places to hide the bodies. 855 HP 575 Years Male Twelfth Division Lieutenant Jade Tigers Ironscale Flight Wingleader Rider Council Member Shieth Dawnreaver Roi Panthere
That Happened Jan 09, 2018, 09:15PM // 1746 Words


01
09
PM - Sat Oct 22


Anger is as blind as love








1:09 PM


75%

Kee

the talk with iname happened.
it uh. it went well.
12:19 PM

Is that sarcasm?
I mean, it seems like it'd be sarcasm, but I was hoping for a better outcome so... I gotta ask.
Sent 12:21 PM

welp.
im crashin with rory these days so that ought say somethin I guess. prolly more about my own mental state than how the conversation went, but yanno. apparently he didnt even notice he was doin' anything different. i guess this bodes well for it changing but im not really holding my breath.
12:25 PM

You guys aren't doing something stupid and breaking up, are you?
Sent 12:27 PM

idk.
i told him about the other day.
you know what he said?
thanks for tellin me.
that's it.
wtf am i supposed to do with him, he dont even seem to care about THAT!
12:34 PM

... look.
I know this isn't something you wanna hear right now, but, maybe you should.
I've said it before, I'm sure, but you can't do this forever, and it's wearing you pretty thin. Just let go.
Sent 12:45 PM

and nobody can tell me wtf that even means
what the fuck is just letting go? like thats a thing thats easy to do after well over a hundred years with the guy. you dont just let go of that, its not that simple, and i really wish you and rory would stop making it out to be.
idk who the fuck i AM without him gage, damn it
12:46 PM

AND THAT IS EXACTLY MY POINT!
This has gotten SO DAMN BAD you don't know how to function without him! It's SO DAMN BAD, you don't know who you are without him! IT'S SO DAMN BAD, CIARAN, YOU'RE AFRAID TO LET HIM GO.
LISTEN to me, damn it, this isn't right, it isn't healthy, and are you damn fucking sure he actually needs you because from where I'm sitting he's a manipulative mother fucker that convinced you he does, doesn't, and now it's you that needs him, because he fucked you up so goddamn bad you don't know how to breathe if he's not telling you!
LET. HIM. GO.
Sent 12:48 PM

gage, stop it.
youre making a big deal out of somethin that aint a big deal.
stop it.
12:52 PM

No.
You cried over this, that's not nothing. This is hurting you, a lot, and I don't want to make it worse, but fuck if I won't if it means it stops.
You're my friend, and I care about you. If I have to be the bad guy, fine, I will be.
Please, Ciaran. Please walk away from this. It's okay to take a step back and take care of you, and if Iname doesn't understand that, then he doesn't fucking deserve you.
Sent 12:54 PM

gage, there is no deserves or not deserves in shit like this
thats not the right way of lookin at it.
1:03 PM

So you're just going to let him get away with anything, treat you however he wants, ruin any sense of self-esteem you may have anymore, gaslight and play mind games with you, and call it good enough, because of cute little anecdotes you read on the internet somewhere?
There is a damn such thing as deserve or not deserve, and anyone that claims there isn't is a damned fucking manipulative liar, or being manipulated.
Sent 1:04 PM

what
who the hell taught you to relationships?!
and that is not what i said!
1:07 PM

That is exactly what you said. And Sheol did.
If you continually put others first, you teach them that you are second.
And don't give me that cute little he was raised that way bullshit.
All that means is he's incapable of thinking for himself and thinks about the wants of people that AREN'T around anymore and DON'T MATTER instead of YOU. Even CYPRIAN'S not that sideways.
Even if you didn't need the break, maybe he does, because obviously he's missing something and he needs to find it on his own, because clearly you don't have it.
Sent 1:09 PM

Ciaran Owen Offline Valhalir // Ian I hate myself. Even as I bark at the moon, I don't have the courage to reach out and grab it. 810 HP 785 Years Male Tenth Division Lieutenant Ebony Lions Eireaball Nathair
That Happened Jan 09, 2018, 09:18PM // 1794 Words


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1:10 PM


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Bluefuck

the talk with iname happened.
it uh. it went well.
Sent 12:19 PM

Is that sarcasm?
I mean, it seems like it'd be sarcasm, but I was hoping for a better outcome so... I gotta ask.
12:21 PM

welp.
im crashin with rory these days so that ought say somethin I guess. prolly more about my own mental state than how the conversation went, but yanno. apparently he didnt even notice he was doin' anything different. i guess this bodes well for it changing but im not really holding my breath.
Sent 12:25 PM

You guys aren't doing something stupid and breaking up, are you?
12:27 PM

idk.
i told him about the other day.
you know what he said?
thanks for tellin me.
that's it.
wtf am i supposed to do with him, he dont even seem to care about THAT!
Sent 12:34 PM

... look.
I know this isn't something you wanna hear right now, but, maybe you should.
I've said it before, I'm sure, but you can't do this forever, and it's wearing you pretty thin. Just let go.
12:45 PM

and nobody can tell me wtf that even means
what the fuck is just letting go? like thats a thing thats easy to do after well over a hundred years with the guy. you dont just let go of that, its not that simple, and i really wish you and rory would stop making it out to be.
idk who the fuck i AM without him gage, damn it
Sent 12:46 PM

AND THAT IS EXACTLY MY POINT!
This has gotten SO DAMN BAD you don't know how to function without him! It's SO DAMN BAD, you don't know who you are without him! IT'S SO DAMN BAD, CIARAN, YOU'RE AFRAID TO LET HIM GO.
LISTEN to me, damn it, this isn't right, it isn't healthy, and are you damn fucking sure he actually needs you because from where I'm sitting he's a manipulative mother fucker that convinced you he does, doesn't, and now it's you that needs him, because he fucked you up so goddamn bad you don't know how to breathe if he's not telling you!
LET. HIM. GO.
12:45 PM

gage, stop it.
youre making a big deal out of somethin that aint a big deal.
stop it.
Sent 12:52 PM

No.
You cried over this, that's not nothing. This is hurting you, a lot, and I don't want to make it worse, but fuck if I won't if it means it stops.
You're my friend, and I care about you. If I have to be the bad guy, fine, I will be.
Please, Ciaran. Please walk away from this. It's okay to take a step back and take care of you, and if Iname doesn't understand that, then he doesn't fucking deserve you.
12:54 PM

gage, there is no deserves or not deserves in shit like this
thats not the right way of lookin at it.
Sent 1:03 PM

So you're just going to let him get away with anything, treat you however he wants, ruin any sense of self-esteem you may have anymore, gaslight and play mind games with you, and call it good enough, because of cute little anecdotes you read on the internet somewhere?
There is a damn such thing as deserve or not deserve, and anyone that claims there isn't is a damned fucking manipulative liar, or being manipulated.
1:04 PM

what
who the hell taught you to relationships?!
and that is not what i said!
Sent 1:07 PM

That is exactly what you said. And Sheol did.
If you continually put others first, you teach them that you are second.
And don't give me that cute little he was raised that way bullshit.
All that means is he's incapable of thinking for himself and thinks about the wants of people that AREN'T around anymore and DON'T MATTER instead of YOU. Even CYPRIAN'S not that sideways.
Even if you didn't need the break, maybe he does, because obviously he's missing something and he needs to find it on his own, because clearly you don't have it.
1:09 PM

why the fuck am i even friends with you
Sent 1:10 PM